hello blog. i don't think i'm in much of a good mood right now.

i've realize that there are some who treat my like an old piece of rotten rug or something. meanwhile there are others who suggests intonatively and verbally that i'm a hypocrite.
maybe it's just part of life.

okay so i suppose it's of no use to tell people the truth and be thought to be a hypocrite. to think that trust was supposed to be very helpful. and i thought you were amongst the few that retained my trust and where i retained yours. i guess the world is just to fair a world for me.

till then, i won't be angry.i'm never the one to hold grudges.

sad.

i'll just be sad.

sad to know such things.

i'll just be happy for what you have to believe in.

humph...herlow blog. im listening to larger than life right now. Had the sudden urge to get it suddenly. that aside.hmmm, i feel guilty about not having the 4e1 class outing. but then, there are people who wants to go but yet can't. I can't just let those people not come you see. its a class outing. responsibility is forever heavy.

okay, so let me grab an issue.hmmm...

okay. yesterday i had gp mid years. i thought i did pretty much okay. hopes it turns out as prognosticated. huh, what? prognosticated? oh it's just a word i used in gp essay. huh? oh. ah heck, i don't know what it means either.

i had chemistry exam today. it was difficult. fullstop.

humph...let me go get a drink 1st. soya bean or ribena? okay fine ribena FAT CHANCE. i love soya bean better.

back.
ok yeah so anyway. oh fish! i dropped my famous amos cookie. hang on.

err, nevermind. the ants can eat up the crumbles later.

right. that aside.

i think i have to organise an outing still with those 4e1 people who wants so. maybe just a simple dinner after collecting the o level cert. perhaps on a weekend.
god willing, let this plan turn out well.

for once.


or perhaps more than that.

till then, see ya blog.
i need to attend to my garfield.

fatme.

ps: ika said i've grown a bit fat OMG!!!!! i can like fly to the moon three times before feeling demoralised for mid years again.

pss: nicole said my bag was cute. god bless her.
i've got taste. haha. shut up ibro.

well hello blog. i suppose i feel an itsy bit emo rite now. considering the fact that im listening to emo songs perhaps. well, itz juz life.

anyway, updates.

well, i have ppp to settle. it actually stands for white box festival, but the malay version. it's a play us students have to organise, direct, set and act out ourselves, but with the guiding voice of our very helpful mentor.

so tomorrow should be the last time we are re-changing the script, as well as finalising it. well , let's hope things work out well for the 7th script then.

argh! stupid mosquito bite, so itchy!!!

okay well anyway. i just happened to realise that....haiz. the things people would do. i just don't understand why. it may not be obvious to the rest, but it's so damn obvious to me, though the aimer may not seem to notice. so the four letter word(not the bad one)really does hurt if you're in it's game. you may not know what i'm talking about. but, it's just life.

maybe it's because of me myself. yeah it's quite true, and understandable even by me. perhaps cuz im not so good-looking, ugly even. then im not a very macho sort of guy either. i'm not that convenient guy who wears shades and is like surrounded by 12 girls. neither do i have an attractive personality. yeah im conscious of all these things. i just tend to realise that no one deserves me for who i am. seriously. i don't mean to be emotional about it or anything. but, i just don't happen to think i am good enough for anyone.

and perhaps i never will be.



ever.

okay hello blog!!!

i juz realized that i havent been updating.

okay lemme wrap, class outing cancelled, debate iz done and over with. HAH
And finally abit lesser stress for me.

okay, but i don't think it's going to be that bad. i'll be having another outing anyway, maybe a movie, perhaps hide and seek god knows what.

hmm. i kinda miss my 4e1 grss friends.

hmm, let me pick out an issue.

okay, so my old friends said i have changed. and when i asked they say

in some way, very hard to explain.

and i suppose that is presumed was meant to make a lot of sense to me.
have i changed really? for the better or for the worst? am i more bitchy? hmm.maybe i have grown more bitchy. maybe its the politics of jc life that forced me to be so. to defend myself perhaps. im SO going to be over the moon if i manage to come out alive after the jc years, not to mention appearing unharmed after promos.

haiz.

anyway, what else can i say.hmmm. im staring at my collins dictionary book right now. and there is an ant crawling up the top right hand corner. okay its gone, maybe it went to find more bread crumbs.

mid years will be coming after june hols. but im still in no mugger mood. i don't feel like studying still.

no!

zhafri you love studying and you will do so or you will die. sighs....

okay then. i suppose that is all i can say for now, not till i can get my hands on something juicy.
till then i suppose i can ponder upon why mr bean fell to earth in a beam of light. that'll entertain me.

i think.

anyway,
chaoz.