Stop And Stare

Friday, June 27, 2008

@ 11:38 PM

hey blog!

it's been a while
oh bloody hell that's far TOO cliche a greeting.

sighs.

anyway!
updates.

1) midyear subjects down - maths, econs, malay language, gp.
2) midyear subjects left - malay lit, english lit.

im quite disturbed lit.
i can get an A one moment and the next i get a U.
so far malay lit's been fine.
its eng lit im worried about.

like for food's sake people write composition essays in 1 half hour and you write a bloody critical commentary

*gasps for deep breaths*

CRITICAL COMMENTARY IN 1 BLOODY HOUR.

oh God help me.

what is wrong with the sense in the world nowadays.

AND THE POLAR BEARS ARE DYING!

sighs.

*in deep thought for about 5 minutes*

*leans back comfortably*

im happy to see my brother in a happy relationship.
both of them.

they seem. fine. happy. content. filled.

and here i am blogging.
sighs.

is it that easy to be content with someone you love?
hmm.
well.
personally for me it isn't.
i just think it's not easy for me to be content with someone fullstop.

wait.
there are many that give me that sense of content.

humph.

what is it that i want really.
if we stick and feel content with whatever we have right now, and remain static, then what's our purpose in life?

we don't get born to be satisfied with whatever shit that's thrown at us.
or to lunge at the first cup of ice-cream we see after eating soooo much vegies.

because.

all you have to do is to look around and who knows you might get a TUB of ice-cream.
instead of that small cup.

then again.
we can never be satisfied that way.
to be on a never-ending journey in search of satisfaction.

well.
rather than remaining constant.

i'd rather move and see my chances.
and learn.
and mature.
and gain many things.

and till i find just the right tub of ice-cream,
i'll still be on the road.

till then blog.

till then.

i'll just have to keep moving.

*smiles*