phew.

that felt good.

okay i know it's been quite a while since i've updated.
i always update when i have an issue.

that's the point!!!!

the bloody fucking point DAMN IT!

okay so you may not understand.
but okay see this.
do u see anyone with by-the-by pictures in friendster??
any pictures with honest smiles???

cuz to be fucking honest i only see pictures with smiles that's just printed on a piece of photo.
simply.
rarely honest smiles.

cuz it's either a smile cuz u got a present or cuz your lover kissed you oh
all the more better, made u feel like u were the only living person on earth???

then fucking dammit keep it to yourself.
since the world is made up of you two then bloody fuck have it your way in your own sweet little corner.
well maybe i am jealous but nevertheless i have no intention of aiming this to anyone in particular.
oh well pardon me but should you feel being AIMED AT or should you feel any slight sense of discomfort do please kindly leave and keep you naive selves or rather selfish selves to your own sweet little brains and fingers.

should there be any unsatisfaction you may leave a comment at my tagboard.
or leave an e-mail. mr_zevil@hotmail.com.
friendster or msn should fancy the trick.

well.
surprised by the sudden uproar?
well i can't stand the naive - no wait.
its not naive.
it's ignorance.
i can't stand the perfect sweetness, supple merriness that are simply tooooo exaggerative in this world that coexists with humans whom by the way are theoretically perfectly capable of distinguishing reality, honesty, modesty between facades and ignorant suppleness of everything and utter fake-ness.

well i just can't stand the sight of people NOT HAVING A LIFE!

like
ERGH!

like daily blogs are soooooooo bloody irritating to me cuz they simply are nothing but plain updates like diary and by the way if you mean it to be a diary then bloody keep it in a diary dammit. not that i read those kinda blogs, but it gets to me.
then oh tell me about people who blog about personal stuff and then kicks a huge fuss out of people reading it and that their privacy is disturbed. and please. blog wars?? don't let me get started on that. god dammit if you wanna war do it face to face with courage, not bloggin incessantly about people you hate then making sour faces at school in front of em.

and talking about courage in fights im just soooooo fucking annoyed by mats or cinas heck any teen who walk in gangs and like stare about here and there and like ambush instead of fighting head on,eye to eye. well again. any dissatisfaction? my details are as mentioned above. should there be any unhappiness, do feel free to contact me.


smiles.
friendster pictures smiles.
only smile when you mean it, cuz it's fucking ugly when you do so without meaning it.
and ladies, drop the all-time famous act-cute smiles please. it's disgusting. fucking disgusting.
how many honest smiles do you see in a day?
oh for goodness sake.
i know so many simply don't realise it.
but as for me it's simply too fake for me to just dismiss and ignore it.

and the exaggerated personality that almost everyone is having at friendster.
like, you had to say certain things about your personality.
try, saying, "i eat. im human. i have friends. i only smile when i mean it"
like ooooh you have to get an eye-grabbing shout-out so that people may be in awe of you and view your profile and read all the interesting facts about you, and perhaps be interested in you.
like heck CAN ANYONE SEE THIS??? HELLO??? HELLO???
well of course. without interesting facts about yourselves that you simply must put because others do so as well, and that you don't wish to sink amongst them, without these it makes your profile boring. defeats the purpose of having friendster profiles yes? cuz that's what it's all about? interest?

but of course no offence to the website friendster itself.

and love.
oh my God....


love?
well its nice.
but keep it to yourselves.
well we can't feel the annoyance if we are the couple in love ouselves, but do keep a sensitive eye out for others who may simply get pissed at the sight of your absurd romance because we simply can't stand the mushy wushiness of it all.
because unless we are you, it's disgusting.
simply.

ergh.
well that rid the heat of it all.
phew.

what was i angry at actually?

maybe it's cuz im pissed at myself due to the fact that i can see certain things very clearly which are dubiously invisible to others.

see through eyes.

see through words.

see through lies.

see through fake-ness.

see the bird's-eye scope of things.







it's hard.

it's hard to ignore it.

anyway, i just realised that i may sound like a fool, some immature imbecile who thinks he knows so much about life. but heck. i don't care. cuz your opinions don't matter. this is what i think, this is what i say. you don't have to give a fuck about what i say, cuz you can simply ignore it, yes? it's my life. get your own.

so for those who simply have not had it yet.






get a life.

10 wishes i wish i could have

1) have a deeper and sexier voice.

2) have a leaner more bigger body

3) have a sharper nose

4) have a cleaner face

5) be more wholistically good looking.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME ANYONE EVER REALISED THE SENSE OF VANITY AND SELFISHNESS THAT HAS OVERPOWERED US ALL?

6) there would be no more war.

7) no more suffering.

8) no more tears of grief.

9) no more tragedy.

10) no more pain.


those are my 10 wishes i wish i could have.












what's yours?

hey blog!!!

okay i've been using that ever since i started bloggin.

how do u do blog???

um. nevermind.

anyway, i went shopping with ika, huda and sheila at the town area today. i've always wanted a black havaianas(i think that's the way it spelt) with the strap at the back. but instead i found this slipper thingie still with a strap at tha back, but it's the one from Urbanmale.

i hate going to Urbanmale.
i always feel soo....
shrunken....
because of the assigned salesperson in the shop.

there i saw leah, ci qin.
and surprisingly jamal. the ppp jamal.


boring.....

here comes the juicy part...

well i got my fair share of gossips, first at kfc(bandito and zinger. nice nice haha) then we moved on to long john silvers to resume our session.

that definitely pumped my life juice going, especially after seeing jamal....


anyway, though i have no idea why certain people ask for it, but i'll touch this issue anyway.

the 5 general people you meet in life

1) those who ponder, unmoving.
a common thing amongst teens alike nowadays, from what i can see in singapore anyway. problems and setbacks usually pull these people behind, making it difficult for them to move on. it just so happens that they find difficulty in pulling the remaining pieces of their life, and let go of the past. even if they do move on, little issues that may remind them of their past may still bother them easily. most of such people are the so called emo-kids.
not that i personally have any right to judge them, but it's just the generality of it all.

2) those who move on, never looking back.
well, usually these beings. they..they are quite strong-willed generally. once they move on it's full-steam ahead. no looking back, and what's past is past is their favourite theme in life, so to say. they can are gifted, in that sense, to be able to dismiss setbacks so easily and move on with even better confidence, without even the slightest want to ponder on about the past should there be any tempation for them to do so.
they usually can't even be bothered to look back.

3) those who move on, but walking forwards backwards.
aha. these peeps are interesting. what i mean, by moving forwards backwards, is like, moving forwards but it's your back that's facing front. these people. they move one. fortunately.

but

the twist is that they move on easily, but still they look back vengefully.

ooooh....

in simpler more vague terms, they move on in revenge, holding grudges, holding vengeful fists.
and these people are always careful when moving forwards, in fear of repeating past mistakes.
otherwise, they usually are quite scared in taking a move that may seem similar to a move that led to their downfall previously.

4) those who just seemed to have moved on

well. these people. they are simply bron-actors. gifted. really gifted. certain of these peeps may have tried to forget the past, but it just comes back to haunt them. so they, in simpler terms, puts on this sort of facade, an image, an act, to make it seem as if they have moved on.
000000.

they do get very very defensive when people may say that they haven't yet let go of what's past, claiming so very strongly that they have moved on.

but

if your persistency gets on to them, they would finally break down and let out the truth about themselves. these people are actually quite the sensitive sort once you've reached such a stage of break-down. they usually need someone close all the time to help them regain their strength, their confidence, and pull themselves together.

5) those who simply can't.
hmm.
these peeps are quite the rare sorts nowadays.
simply, it's like.
if they have chosen, they have chosen alright.
it's like they harbour totally everything on whatever it is in the past they had.
once they lose this support, they cant pick themselves up.
its purity in loyalty.
pure loyalty is what these peeps have.
faithfullness too.

well, actually there are lots more categories.
of course there are others who are like, a mix of the different categories, of course depending on the varying sorts of situation you have as well.

its up to you to decide which you are in. there isn't anyone who can give a better say than yourself. true?

well, unfortunately or otherwise there would be people ending up disagreeing with certain things that i may have said here.

but hey.

here's the deal.

you decide your life.




im just another ordinary blogger.

whatever it is you may think, i don't play an authoritative or influential role in it.

but based on the 5 categories above and what has been said, i trust.




i trust





you know where you stand.






till then blog.

~toodles~


zhafri's life quotes : failure is not when you fall. failure is falling, and not picking yourself back up again.