hiya blog.
sorry for the epic hiatus.

i dun feel like updating whats happened so far.
there are too many details that i wudn want to miss typing, that if i did in the 1st place haha.
so maybe not now yeah?

i just feel that.
inching closer to 20.
im growing old.
seriously.
in so many ways.
so much so that i can't be bothered.
to look at my feet.

to see if there are any stones.
or bricks.
or icky stuff u accidentally step on.
i feel like just going ahead.
so that i know what is at the end of my path.

despite watever shit that might come along the way.
you know.
hiding in bushes waiting to jump on you or sumthin.

i feel like taking all paths.

all.

evry single one of them.
i never
ever
wish to regret not knowing what would have happened if i took a different path.
pondering.
for the rest of my so-far-so-sane life.
not knowing what would have happened.

though somewhere deep inside.
somewhere.
just knowing so well the great things that otherwise would have occured.

the different path.
the different people you would have met.
the different things in which you did. own. created. remembered.

i want to know all that.
all of the what-would-have's.
even if the outcomes are bad.
at least i know the outcome.




regret what you didn't do
rather than regret what you did.


it's time to not look around in unnecessary, excessive, superfluous caution.
time to look forward without such worries too.
whatever happens.
i'll cross my fingers.
and hope.
that i would sound and feel genuine when i say :


at least i knew.



life is gona be full of regrets anyway.
might as well regret the way you want to.