oh.
we apologized.

and how long did that take?
10 minutes?
hmm.
i can't believe the argument was just 10 minutes ago.

well.
she did say she apologizes if she's in the wrong.
i replied im in more wrong.
just being obliging.

she wasn't really willing to talk much about it though.
well.
at least im glad its over.

hey blog.
have i told you?

i forgive.
i never forget.

no grudges.
i just don't forget.


*sigh*




and i really wonder how my children will turn out.

hey blog.
so much for the sunshine today.
mom's mad at me.
freaking mad i guess.
that doesn't make me one bit more happier than she is.

i think she ticked me at the wrong time today.
and thus the explosion.
whatever.
i don't think it's my fault alone.

i reverted back her scolding-speech back to her.
hey, not that i'm unfillial.
just that i'd speak to her in a much matured adult to adult sensibility everytime i'd argue with her. well, not that it's often, but everytime it does happen, i'd tick her the way none else would.

both my brothers would either simply get angry, shout and slam the door.
only to apologise afterwards.

typical.

i don't.
not yet.

i'd argue with her.
volley back to her, her own words.
and throught the entire process where she raises her voice i'd remind her that i am not in any way raising mine.



which would of course tick her even more.

it all started when she called my name.
then.
silence.
then.
she got annoyed.
becuz i din't come to her.
then i gave my reply.
and so it started.

i'm just so simply ticked off by people who call you like that.
not explaining what for.
happens to me ALL the time.
sometimes to get tissue, to go back and fetch it and to return to them again.
or to fetch something or what not.

PLEASE.
God what i s wrong.
EVERYONE knows i'm a blur guy who wouldn't know much of what to do unless told so.

okay i guess you're confused with me right now blog.

ergh.
parent-child argument.
it happens sometimes.

she did ask me if i was gonna apologize.
my brothers would have.
i simply sat close to her and asked if it was my fault alone.
and thus the 2nd explosion.

humph.
do i sound rude?
am i rude?
i did explain to her my sentiments.
but to what effect?
i don't know.

humph.
i am humble where i stand wrong.

but where i believe myself to be standing right,
i don't care who you are.
where i sould still retain my respect for you,
i would mildly-respectfully challenge you.
regardless of your authority.

respect begets respect.
you don't snap your fingers and demand respect from me.

you earn it.

fuck the convention of the older never apologizing to the young.
not that my mom wouldn't apologize.
it's just that this general convention is typically annoying.
so the young girls who got raped by old ticos should apologize to them?
ooooooo.
how sensible.

hmm.
well.
that rid the heat off a bit.
but blog, i do know limits.
i do.
i really do.
she is my mother after all.
i acknowledge that.
and for that.
i'd apologise to her later maybe.

but under the right circumstances.
upon the right reasons.

i know i'm in the wrong too.
but i don't like people not acknowledging their wrong either.





haha.
and you wonder where my ego comes from.

*smiles*
*looks down*
i realize i have to cherish people while their still there.
but that doesn't make my life living to live theirs.

it's all about compromising.


*stares into blank air for a long time*






you know.
they say your children would be worse than yourself.







God save me.

*shakes computer screen violently*
BLOG!

i accidentally deleted ALL the photos i took with my phone!

*wipes tears for the 872305th time*

aaaaaaahhhh!!!!

pfft!
*&$%%^*^&!!!!!!

okay.
you know what blog?
i'll just savage whatever i have.
from all over the place.
from the previous posts.
from my cam.
from others.
from the makcik who used to sell mee rebus at my primary school
ANYONE!



so long as there's me in the pictures.
at some GOD-forsaken corner of the pic i DON'T CARE!
i'll take it!
so long as im in the picture i'll take it.




so to the people i've cam-whored with,
PLEASE pass the the pics so long as im in the picture okay!

although i don't think i'll get everything back.






some were very good memories.
well.

hm.

some leave.
some remain.
others.
disappear.


what are you trying to say God?
or is this just something as plain as random you planned for me?
are you trying to say i should leave space for new pics next year?
but i still liked this year.
no matter what.
it was.

fun.

and nice.
somewhat.

*smiles bleakly*

God.
i don't know if

O MAK KAU!

eh eh anti-climax kodomo powder.
suddenly drop.
spoil the mood.


erherm.
anyway.
where was i?
argh.
nvm.

i don't know what to make of all o this.
all of what's happened.
but i guess.
i'm.
thankful.

and for that,




i thank You.




to be and to be and then to be.
i'll run as far as i can see.





till then.


good night blog.