i just finished my listening compre.
rushed back home.

something WOULD happen.
i knew it.
at the start of the year i said it.

why am i from year 7 batch?
why do i meet this fellar after 4 years of pre-knowledge?
why is seven times four 28?
why am i in s28 with that fellar?

what IS IT that's gonna happen?

i dont like this.

i really dont.
this is not good.

no.
i wont believe it.
no.
its a coincidence.

yes.
a coincidence.

yes.
God plans everything.




but.

whatever unfolds.
i hope its okay.






God help us.

to you-know-who-you-are,

i also thought about the convo yesterday.
and this is in reply of your post.

cherishing is not just appreciating.
cherishing a friendship is when you are there to listen to whatever the other party has to say if there be an argument. cuz real friends would listen to one another.
not to walk off after ur done with your bit.
or rather, run away.
this may all seem repetitive, but for the sake of remembrance.
and you seem to be happy with this.
running away.
fine with the way this works.
when i say i dont care i meant i dont care if you do this to me.
but to others?
do you not feel the guilt?

and sorry to say you reek of narcisissim.
you trample on other's life principle and the moment the fellar tries to explain you cant be bothered and run away.
and you dismiss this as something natural.
like, how throwing shit is something i do.
like, slapping someone is part of my nature.
like, killing? oh you cant blame me cuz that's who i am.
do you not feel the guilt?
do you not see this?

look.
i know you might be hurt or insulted or etc.
but if simplicity is what you want then those are the simple facts i have.
i am not a perfect human being.
i know.
but at least i see my faults and try to improve.
i never feel content about myself and would always seek improvements.


and bo.
"i would have been fine even if you walked off".
i never said you wouldn't.
i would only walk off if you did first.
cuz you ARE socially stable now.
you flew.
im still down there.
i promised to be down there just in case you fell.
cuz im a mere platform.

and lastly, my "not caring about a single thing" isnt true.
if i didnt care i would have had my sword drawn.
if i didnt care i wouldnt have given advises.
if i didnt care,

i wouldnt still be a platform down here.

remember.
i just do not commit.
id walk off if you dont need a platform up there.
id walk off to where i am right now.
so here i am down here.
just in case.
just in case you fall.

and till then,
always try to
improve, listen and understand.

and so i pray to see you happy.
you will never know who i am.
just know that im somewhere.



looking.
praying.
hoping.

for the best.


and till then,
love,


bobo.

ps : i need my baju skolah haha.

do realize that i am never the sort of person who rambles endlessly about myself.
not one bit.

everything's for good reasoning.
everything i do.

do realize that i only meant to be a platform.

now that you've managed to grab enough social circles,



grow.



grow and bloom.

and with that stability you don't need a platform anymore.
not any longer.

with all smiles i watch you from behind.
happy to see you be just the person who you wish to be.




but i just wanna make my volatile character seen.
that i do not commit.
that i can walk off at any time.
im sorry.
i only intended to be a platform.
a comfortable platform for you stand on and reach out.


remember.


platforms do not commit to anything.
it's a harsh fact.
but.
remember too.
that a platform would always be there.

just in case you fall.

*smiles*




till then.
remain safe.






and fly.