Stop And Stare

Sunday, July 13, 2008

@ 1:20 AM

to you-know-who-you-are,

i also thought about the convo yesterday.
and this is in reply of your post.

cherishing is not just appreciating.
cherishing a friendship is when you are there to listen to whatever the other party has to say if there be an argument. cuz real friends would listen to one another.
not to walk off after ur done with your bit.
or rather, run away.
this may all seem repetitive, but for the sake of remembrance.
and you seem to be happy with this.
running away.
fine with the way this works.
when i say i dont care i meant i dont care if you do this to me.
but to others?
do you not feel the guilt?

and sorry to say you reek of narcisissim.
you trample on other's life principle and the moment the fellar tries to explain you cant be bothered and run away.
and you dismiss this as something natural.
like, how throwing shit is something i do.
like, slapping someone is part of my nature.
like, killing? oh you cant blame me cuz that's who i am.
do you not feel the guilt?
do you not see this?

look.
i know you might be hurt or insulted or etc.
but if simplicity is what you want then those are the simple facts i have.
i am not a perfect human being.
i know.
but at least i see my faults and try to improve.
i never feel content about myself and would always seek improvements.

and bo.
"i would have been fine even if you walked off".
i never said you wouldn't.
i would only walk off if you did first.
cuz you ARE socially stable now.
you flew.
im still down there.
i promised to be down there just in case you fell.
cuz im a mere platform.

and lastly, my "not caring about a single thing" isnt true.
if i didnt care i would have had my sword drawn.
if i didnt care i wouldnt have given advises.
if i didnt care,

i wouldnt still be a platform down here.

remember.
i just do not commit.
id walk off if you dont need a platform up there.
id walk off to where i am right now.
so here i am down here.
just in case.
just in case you fall.

and till then,
always try to
improve, listen and understand.

and so i pray to see you happy.
you will never know who i am.
just know that im somewhere.

looking.
praying.
hoping.

for the best.

and till then,
love,

bobo.

ps : i need my baju skolah haha.