hey blog!
despite the exclamation mark i AM quite a tired person right now.

*yawns*

it was a very long and

oh sorry i got distracted by an itch.

where was i?
oh YES!
oh it was one HECK of a long day.

it all started off when sheila,
in name of all randomness,
txted me saying that there would be
an interview for topshop part-timers on the afternoon of 25th nov,
which if you have not noticed was today.

yes.
today.
so in all panic i called saiful to inform of the job "lobang"
and rushed off to get ready.
only to realize that i have not
1) ironed ANY clothes.
2) got any proper colourless lenses to wear.
3) showered.

so after all the preps
(which drew the suspicion of my parents cuz i literally randomly woke up and started panicking)
i wanted to get ready with my face preps when my liquid foundation slipped.

1) yes, it was new.
2) yes, i do have a liquid foundation mind you.
3) it was my first time using one.
4) it splattered all over :
4a) the wall.
4b) the floor.
4c) my shirt.
4d) my jeans.
4e) me.

convenient?
well it's just another that's-so-zhafri thing.

heck that.
so i finally met sheila abit late(after bargaining for 5 more mins)
and went off for the topshop-topman interview at kovan.
yeah, i've never heard of kovan before either.

but we reached a place callled, what, windthayng?
idunnoe.
there were LOTS of people.
do notice how "lots" is italicized and in bold and in caps lock.

so we had a group interview,
sheila with shu yuan in one group,
me stuck with 3 girls in another.

i definitely stood out,
cuz i talked most and was most confident.
well, apart from being oldest.
they were all secondary school fresh-graduates.
BUT!
they ALL had working experience.
so i lost out BIG TIME for that part.

*sigh*

i know they want retail experience,
but i hope they gimme a chance.
they'll call me nx week if i gt shortlisted.

so i'll wait.
and wait.
and wait *echo*
and wait *echo more*
and wait *echo even more*
*and echo continuously*


*sigh*
i dunnoe if they wud call me.
but i 'll hope for the best.
just like im doing for a lvls.


hope buddy.
God aside you are my only other salvation.

that aside, as i wanted to leave(it was alr about 4)
we got lost, finding the bus-stop, me and sheila.
yes, another its-so-zhafri situation.
oh, to add on,
1) sheila's ez link card was showing a bit of an attitude problem
2) we alighted at outram park by mistake cuz we got carried away talking.
3) i arrived home close to evening only to realize i havent packed my notes that fizah wanted
4) packed and filtered perpetually....
5) rushed to send them over(i insisited)

and am now sitting in my crummy room blogging.

*eyes growing heavy*
oh i need to catch up with my beauty sleep.

*yawns*

oh, long day blog.
loooong day.


so till then blog.
i'll have to catch up with sleep.
toodles~

blo-
*stomach grumbles*

ergh, nature's call.
i swear if i don't move in 2 seconds ill crap right here.
*stomach grumbles again*
ergh..
can you hear that?
the excitement of the holidays.

the freedom.

the liberty.




it begins.

Assurance Would Be Enough

i yearn, for something i fear to grab.
the commitment, the nostalgia, the emotions.
the heavy clinging feels in my throat.
i yearn for all that.
so that im not hollow. void. echo.
bt im not taking a step forward.
not yet.
or maybe never will.
i want that heaviness in my heart.

i yearn for something i hesitate to delve into.
i don't know what it would give.
would it give me what i want?
would it?
the 100% of it.
would it?
would it?

i want to die feeling content.
once.
just once.
a whiff of it.

the assurance, within.



that would be enough~




-zhafri(1990-God knows when)

hey blog!
A lvls are FINALLY over for me
*phew*
bt now the moment of waiting commences.

*sigh*
i know im nt gona get excellent results.
screwed up my gp essay for the first time.
and it had to be during a lvls.
there goes my A or B for gp.

i lost a lot of marks for maths too.
my only hope is moderation.
i'll be beyond euphoric and thankful to God if i ever gt a C.

well, i srewed up econs essay too.
didnt have the right content.
bt case study was fine.
*sigh*
there goes my B for econs.

and mly lit,
for the first time,
was not easy.
language section was not difficult, but was not easy.
for the first time it was not easy.
bt the lit section,
oh God.
it was beyond difficult.
i rrrrreally hope i gt an A for it.
its my only salvation.

as for english lit,
well,
it sounds repetitive bt i kinda screwed it up too.
well,
sounds like a dark future huh?
well, i dun mind retaking.
or exploring other options.
im open and sufficiently liberal =)


when people say that the last batch of the old syllabus would have difficult exams,
they really meant it.
oh God my only salvation right now is You and moderation.


and oh yeah,
BIG SHOUT-OUT TO ALL WHO WISHED ME!
even though my birth day has passed quite sum time ler.
sheila just passed me n Escada's Men Eu De Toilette set.
nice cologne plus this nice smelling wash.
she passed it to me after my last paper yesterday,
cuz she cudn pass the present anytime before that.

talk about FREEDOM and SURPRISE at the same time haha.
im lucky i end quite early.
but i wish all the other peeps the best for their further exams.


so blog!
cheers to the end of A lvls, fresh blogskin, and holidays.
that is until i think about my horrid results 2 seconds later.
*sigh*

bt im over that.
i know my results already.
what's important is what i do after that.

life, you never fail to be eccentric for me.
so cheers too,
for the prohecy of my life,
for being as eccentric as can be.







so till then blog,
till then.